Improvisation

Memories collide with the reality I always hold in my mind
Filled with lace and drama, there really is no need to explain further
I hear this little voice from a distant place
Not my conscience since it's dead
Tied up with nails it's easy to deny
The problem in front of your eyes

My balance glides off and ends up somewhere unknown
A far away place I've never heard of
But there is a need to explore its veins
Unless it's bound to be destroyed by artificial forces

I try to capture a moment
But it passes by quickly
Almost as if I didn't live it at all
But someone else
I don't know who it is
I've changed since lies have been told and sold to the nearest merchant
Supposing it'd be best to continue living in denial

I think I've been Drinking and Eating a lot of shit from Wonderland

I'm serious!
I realize now that I have good days and bad days. Before, I only have bad and empty bad days. I don't know, it was just weird. Now that my life is somewhat balanced, I really don't over analyze things anymore. Which is weird because it was my favorite hobby ever.
In other news, I've given up on digital photography. I really don't consider myself as a talented photographer so I'm just focusing on film photography for now. Though I did waste like 3 35mm films but oh well, that's because the camera's battery is RIP.

I'm much more focused on the concept of freedom. It's supposed to be an absolute concept. I learned about it while watching The Duchess. I mean do I practice such concept or not? That and I've been getting this angst every time I'm at my house. Probably because I found interesting people to hang out with. Though I am awfully quiet. Am I still the shy human being like I've always been?

I think that's the part that has been true ever since I learned how to exist. The shy part of me. I've been mean, sarcastic, bitchy, funny, hyper but always shy. Maybe I don't suffer from a personality disorder after all. No sir. No sir.

LOL! I just love how this entry makes no sense whatsoever.

Home cooked meals took over my house

So yeah I now know how to make sushi. My brother showed me how which is easy but hard to find the ingredients around where I live. But nevertheless he did find the seaweed and sushi rice (no ordinary rice will help). Luckily, we had some bamboo rollers (?) :3 so yeah my brother cooked the rice (4 cups of rice and 4 cups of water plus vinegar) for idk how long then we put the rice in the seaweed and I don't know why I'm explaining this since it's so easy but oh weeeeeell. It really is easy plus you can put any ingredient you'd like :3 yesterday I put philadelphia cheese and avocado but today I put phil cheese (I like it :3) and carrots (hard to cut).
Anyway, I've been into these web series (both of them created by Woody Tondorf) which areeee Elevator show and Hooking Up. And no, I'm not making a review and stuff, it just happened that I liked them a lot. But that's what happens when you listen to Kate Micucci songs. She plays Lily on the Elevator show.